The day you left or should I say you have returned to where you came from? Where you actually belong.  

The sky was crying or was that you?

Your soul was trapped. 

Your body was shackled to bed and entangled by tubes. 

I could feel you.

Finally set free from being held in for so long. 

I know you were tired. 

Very tired.  

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You were the rain.

Gently coming down and saturating the soil

like your love for the three of us, for the people around you

nurturing and cultivating us, naturally, unconditionally 

we grow and blossom 

I don’t want you to go

I wish I could hold on to you tightly, forever

I would beg on my knees 

Use my time on this earth in exchange to extend yours

I know that’s just me being childish 

you were tired 

I need to let you go, regardless of how much it hurts from within

I love you and I have to set you free 

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Everyone said sorry for my loss

I never owned you, mother

I am part of you, a continuation of you 

I am you 

I will take good care of myself 

Hopefully becoming a strong woman like you 

Continue to give,to love, selflessly 

Be an anchor for self and others

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I never thought that I would start enjoying a rainy day

I never thought that I could be so calm 

Oh 

I am you, mother 

I am the rain 

Rest in peace now and see you later, mommy.  

10.13.2020 time 8:15am location – Downtown Boston