1. People tend to like expensive gifts. Honestly, so do I. I like expensive gifts too. The most expensive gifts, the most precious ones that one could ever offer are their presence, time&attentiveness. I want that. All of that.
   

”Thich Nhat Hanh: Because you are fully there, you recognize the presence of your beloved as something very precious. You embrace your beloved with mindfulness. And he or she will bloom like a flower. To be loved means to be recognized as existing…”

2. It doesn’t matter when I like, where I like, who I like, how I like, what I like, but why I like- sometimes, it can be described through words, but captured in an image.

3. “Be good or be good at it.”

4. Nowadays everyone is a philosopher. Some were born one. Some were made into one. And some pretending to be one. 
 
5.”But why should I be original? Why can’t I be non-original?” …. why can’t I be special that way? Andy Warhol

6.What’s in the mind that prevents us from getting hurt also distant us from getting closer to love. 

7. 最近一直沉淪在想著一個人，思考一段往事，造成現時煩惱。我是那種哲學家，偵探家，想看透人心理的人的思維。（而我最留意的就是自己的，先看透自己，才可以看透別人。）不想相信或停留在事件的表面。 一直在思考，一直在回想，其他人的話我都會聼不進去，唯有到了自己真正找到那答案才會停止。到最后原來，問題就在於那問題。不停的思考，就因爲我不願意讓自己的思緒去有一刻的休止。仿佛就是一個惡性循環，思考問題，問題沒有答案，繼續回到思考。到最後，我終于記得那一句， 

When you look into an abyss, the abyss also looks into you.

當你看進深淵時，深淵同時也在看透了你。
有時對於情緒困擾，停留在表面就是最好的辦法。停止吧。去做一做其它的東西，感覺就會好多了。（以上建議只提供於一般壓力所帶來的情緒問題，如果感覺生活上各活動都無法進行。不要考慮，去找心理治療師，會有用的。）

8.人生，最貼切的形容詞是”無常。”

9. Many days in life like today, you realize you have a lot of thoughts and doubts on your mind. Each of them has a voice and wants to be the winner of this ”debate” occurs in your tiny brain. You want to ignore them…but the harder you try the louder they get. You start to panic. Remember all you have to do is to let them all out, let them get tired and they will rest on their own… the moment of peace will come… …surrender.

10. In a materialistic culture, you are conditioned to react, to acquire from your surroundings when you feel that you lack certain things in your life. That often fails us. Instead you should look inward. Search within and you should find.

If a person keeps looking for love and attention from the outside, does that mean this person has not loved/paid enough attention to herself/himself?  

Many years later answering my own question – I don’t think that this person hasn’t loved herself enough. Getting love/like/attention from the outside is easy, and easy comes easy goes. -2020

11. Every day, every second, people update you on their emotional “wellbeing” verbally, visually, so easily… and it’s like the emotion becomes the air, taking up as much space as they can, you are encapsulated by these “micro-emotion.” Sometimes, I am just so tired….. I really want to breathe… a breath of fresh air. Be conscious and be that breath of fresh air for someone, today.

12. Physical pain has an negative effect on your mental health and vice versa. 

13. “过去已过去。未来 ，才是值得一谈的事。” 

2020—–>

14. Suffering is like an ocean. If you stay calm, you would stay afloat and feel the greatest feeling ever felt on earth, being gravity free. If you panic, you will sink and get devoured by it.

15. Love is Love. Avoidance is avoidance. If anyone tells you they don’t want to hurt you and starts avoiding you, that’s not love. That’s the opposite of love, absence of love. When one loves you, they will be there and do whatever it takes to protect you. Walk away, set them free, set yourself free.

16. Even with meditations, I want to overdoes on it, that’s how much I want to speed up the healing process; how much I want to be normal and loving again. Girl, slow down, it’s mediation, not medication. #loss&grief

17. I am seeing patterns. How was I so blind and got dragged into the same vortex. Karma, I blame and I need to break it even with tremendous pain.

18. Recently, someone asked me a question, when was the last time I had “such” be honest. Although I knew it was general question, somehow I felt that my characters were being questioned/attacked. I can’t help but felt upset. I really shouldn’t feel that way, I know me, you don’t.

19. I feel a sense of heaviness. For me, I always want to communicate my perspective/feelings and have a desire to understand the other person’s point of view. The heaviness comes when the other person is not willing/unable to share their side; that I try to so hard to “dig,” to look for the clue, the truth. However, the truth/reality is present, right in front of me, I don’t accept it/surrender to the moment. Maybe that’s the actual heaviness, my inability to just accept what’s in front of me and let it be, let it go.